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Reading this, I feel your anxiety as if it's my own. I have GAD, Panic Disorder, and PTSD. Between Oct. 2017 and Nov. 2018, I was diagnosed with cancer three times. Between Nov. 2017 and Mar. 2020, I had six surgeries and chemo (In the US Healthcare system which is a nightmare). I only disclosed that to let you know I understand. This isn't about me, it's about you. I'm not going to offend or be rude to you by telling you to relax. I'm not going to tell you to take deep breaths, turn on some music, and think about running through fields of flowers. As someone who knows what you're feeling I know none of that helps. Well, during a panic attack the deep breathing might help so you don't pass out. You're so right about the anxiety being there all the time and there's no way to control that. Once your body sets off those chemicals, it's out of your hands. If it's not in the front of your mind, it's in the back. It's not just emotionally exhausting, it's physically exhausting. Add financial issues to it and that exasperates the anxiety. To me, your strength should be commended. Even if sometimes you feel you might be weak because of the constant anxiety, you're not. You're a warrior. You haven't given up.

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Thanks and take care, John

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